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I am so happy to be back!  After spending a semester working in a factory I feel college is awesome again.  You never can realize how nice something is till you have to do something that totally sucks.

Ok so I was SUPPOSED to go to Basic training on the 11th of Aug.  BUT the day of they finally read paper work that they had had for 9 months and decided i was unfit to serve because i had high blood pressure.  I was SOOO pissed!  In hindsight I get a semester off school (classes started so soon most classes i needed to take were full) and I will live a much safer life where I will much less likely have to decide whether my life or my friends is worth more than that of the man(or woman) at the other end of my gun.  Just thinking about having to make that decision gives me the heebie-jeebies! (the thought of having to kill a woman gives me nigh

I leave for BCT and AIT tomorrow.  I won't be home till early December.  I'm so worried about what might happen! I don't want to injure or be injured by anyone who doesn't truly want to give me harm.  I would feel terrible if i ever had to actually kill someone.  Just thinking about it is terrible!  I feel it would be even worse to be the reason a fellow soldier is injured.  I know it must sound silly to join the army while not wanting to kill anyone but i do understand that a day might come where to save a life or save a hundred lives i will be forced to take one, but that doesn't mean i won't spend the rest of my life feeling terrible for i